Death

This is the word I'd tried to escape from hearing or seeing.

A friend of mine received a call from her relative while we're on the K session.

Tonight was supposed to be a happy night but not until 11 ish,

when she sat down informing us her mom had just passed away.

I kept quiet as I didn't know what to say or how to comfort her.

Usually I got really numb when I heard news of people passed away.

I could feel how sad you'd be for losing your closest person.

Someone whom you won't be seeing or talking to anymore in your life.

I couldn't imagine if one day my closest ones were gone.

I'm afraid i might just go insane, I couldn't imagine myself really.

Even last time, what i did when i felt sad or hurt.

I'd do something painful to distract myself from being really hurt.

I went to piercing/tattooing.

This year I realized that my parents aren't as healthy as they used to be.

My mom admitted to the hospital during raya.

When i was in the hospital, i only hope for 1 thing,

i just wanted her to get well soon.

This holiday I went back to my hometown,

And she looks much healthier than the last time I saw her.

Maybe I'm conservative minded, i've always wanted my family to live together.

That's why instead of buying myself branded stuff or gadgets,

I own myself a house instead.

I guess that's one of the unique characteristic of a cancerian.

Friend, be strong.

R.I.P to auntie.

And to people who are not too late,

please call your parents or close ones while you still can.