Give in or Give up?

I'm so tired... and i don't learn from mistakes.

Things just didn't happen like I wished.

My schedule is full but my heart is empty...

Sighs... lemme alone will do. Bye.

Timing

I'm terribly hungry now but I must blog this out first.

Sometimes love itself is ain't enough, it has to do with timing.

If the timing was wrong, it's hard even though both of you do feel for each other.

To me, I'd always encountered the bad timings.

Mostly:

1. I met you when I wasn't ready.

2. I met you when you're already with someone.

Can we actually change it? or it's fated?

Is it selfish when you insist to pursue even if you know it's wrong?

Sighs... I hope for the right timing, to love you.

Or the worst... I'm gonna wait then.

So-called friend(s)

Friends are forever,
I guess I was too naive to believe that joke.
Today is April fool but I was awaken by the fact...
that our friendship had been fooled.

Well, i've been taken for granted countless times.
I'm so numbed. I'm so tired and I'm so disappointed.
Happy April Fool!

more than one in my mind...

Have you ever experienced having a few peoples on your mind?
Recently there's another one that had turned me on.
And only recently I found her darn hot, has she's been hiding from my sight or...
I was fucking blinded by others.
knnccb... wtf i want? diu.

Hard to please.

After complaining about the hypocrites that have less self-realization,

and kinda felt that I'm lacked of self-realization too.

Pardon the way I blogged, did I just confused you by my bipolar personality?

Don't be, cuz I'm always behaving this way.

Why did i say i'm hard to please?

Because I tent to compare too much,

maybe I still don't get the meaning of perfection of imperfection.

When the things is too perfect, i whine about something else.

Nothing seems to be able to please me.

Let's say... i like to use chicks for instance,

she's pretty, she's close to perfect but i found her lack of personality,

or... she's hot, she can be nasty sometimes but i admire her wildness.

or to make it short, I love to be mentally tortured.

If you treated me way too nice, I don't appreciate you.

Once you realize it and decided to ignore me, I will start to miss you.

I did discuss this to my friends, I guess I'm not alone,

I did notice some peoples who have the same thinking as mine.

it's okay, i'm a fuckard.

Hypocrisy

I'm getting really annoyed with hypocrites.

Seriously, those people have no sense of self-realization.

By engaging the same shits as you condemned others for doesn't make you look good.

Some people are just better off keeping their mouths shut or staying away from the keyboard.

Certain individuals have got to learn how to mind their own business.

Why making the world less peaceful anyway?

Why have to make others look uglier by your words in order to comfort yourself?

Why can't you prove others with what you've got (inner self, maybe?)?

Why have to create tiny devil action to make yourself feels better?

Get a life. Live life cool and peaceful. ciao!

p/s: this post doesn't refer to anyone. things just popped out in my mind.

it's back again

I could feel that it's coming back,

it took me a while to forget...

but whatever it is, i need to be rational,

and quit being so emo.

Whether it's gonna be better or worse,

i'm gonna reserve the best for myself.

i'm still gonna fish around until i got the right one.