Words from the bottom of my heart

I'm easily contented. Everything that you say, you do, you draw, you like, you share takes my breath away. Do you know that i'd made your drawing as my desktop background. Do you know that every single reply/post whether in msn or facebook does mean a lot to me. Today I met you, even though we did not talk much, somehow i felt happy because it's not easy to meet up with you. I really hope that I could see you again.

Sometimes I was lost, as well as my confidence. Who am I to love you? Sometimes I was afraid, I might not be seeing you no more or you might judge me for who i am. I'm from the queer world, therefore I'm ready for any failure or rejection. I remember you used to tell me about people's appearance, you love seeing beautiful peoples. However I am not, I'm not beautiful nor handsome. I'm just an ordinary looking queer that only knows that I do adore you from the first time we met.

I'm not expecting you to read this, because I know you wouldn't. Even if you would, I was afraid you might just stop talking to me. However I'm insisting to type out my feeling from my miserable heart because I'm feeling vulnerable at the moment. I'm not a sweet talker, I don't usually express my feeling to someone I like/love. Especially to straight, it's even harder.