Families are forever

While I was 'browsing' on the facebook's profiles of my families,

suddenly I saw this appeared at one of my kuku(aunt)'s pictures.

It says:

"Families are forever

God could not be everywhere and therefore he made mothers - Jewish Proverb

One of the greatest things a father can do for his children is to love their mother - Howard W. hunter."

When I looked closely, I saw my name had been tagged there as well.

I'm the only one in black, because I did not accept my kuku's friend request.

However she remembers me as her niece, tagged me because we're families.

The reason why I did not accept my kuku's request is because...

as obviously as you can see, i'm the black sheep of the family.

It's hard especially your family members are adding you on facebook,

I'm out to most of my friends but not to my family yet.

The reason I did not accept their friend's requests is because:

-I do not wish them to know about my sexual orientation

-I do not want them to feel embarrass of having me as part of the families

-And most importantly, i don't want them to be sad :(

First time when I came out to my eldest sister was in year 2001 via email,

although she seemed to be very supportive, I knew she was sad.

Year 2002, I told my cousin sis because coincidentally her classmate's cousin is my so-called ex.

Year 2004, I told my cousin bro, he was sad too but he tried to make me feel comfortable by saying "I do peep at guys sometimes"

2007, I told my 2nd sis via email when I was having depression after breaking up with my last ex, she called me after she read the email and cried over the phone.

Sometimes I was in dilemma, whether I should come out or not,

but I'd definitely come out to them when I found my soul mate.

I'll be one day accepting/adding all of them to my facebook.

And I hope they will love and support me for who I am, for my happiness.