Life...'s a bitch

For years, i search for 'happiness'. I found my happiness but happiness became sadness. To me, being able to love each other means happiness. You're working hard, being criticized and sorts, but when you think of her and being able to see her later, those unhappiness would became happiness. I watched this drama series and i believe life's like a drama series, it really happened in life. Today the reason why I'm so emotional is because I saw myself in that series.

My first happiness appeared in year 2004, I was happy though I wasn't being able to continue my previous course, being paid only 5 per hour, living a life with only 500 bucks per month to survive for every month, no entertainment... that's because my happiness was with me, supporting me, being next to me everyday. You've never complained that i was poor or useless. You accompanied me to look for jobs, from store to store even though I was not willing to work. You've never whined bout the mattress we slept was too uncomfortable. When i was jobless and useless, everyday at 11 at night, i would wait for your call to tell me to pick you up from the lrt station. I love the moment when I walked to the lrt station though it's not near, i love when I was seeing my love came out from the train and I love the most when we're holding each other's hand walking back home. I couldn't support you therefore you work, yet you'd never given up on me. When she's gone, my happiness gone too.. Everynight i teared on the pillow that we used to sleep together.