Dear coobii,
How can i call it a confession since you're not gonna read this? But it's all right, I'm getting used doing things without having anyone to know.
Today, I was really sad by the way you treated me or i must say it wasn't the first time we quarreled and you deleted me from msn and facebook. Why did i care so much that you deleting me from msn or facebook? I care because I still care about you eventhough I knew you don't bother to know anything about me. I was born this way, extra caring + extra softhearted (I'm not complimenting myself, i called them my weaknesses). Whenever I see you online, i know you're doing fine. When i don't see you online, I know there's something wrong. That's how I'm keeping track of your life because I knew I've no right interrupting your life anymore, as I have no reason of why I shall sms you or call you anymore.
My tears rolled down to my upper lip out of sudden when I knew you did the same thing again. I wiped off my tears immediately and forced myself to hold the tears, however I failed. I hate myself being so fragile and weak of handling the issues between you and me. At the end of the day, I'll be the one who begs for forgiveness eventhough I knew it wasn't my fault. Again, I cried for you, the number of times I cried was uncountable within these 2 years. Sometimes I wonder why I need to work so hard to maintain the friendship between us since you will be taken it for granted. I'll never ask you for anything but at least a respect, could you? You told me you're trying to be harsh to me so that i could forget you, i wish i could forget you but you know it's impossible unless I lost my memory.
Why were you hating me? Ain't me supposed to be the one who hated you? Leaving me for someone new, making me the 3rd party in your new relationship, living my life so miserable without getting acknowledge and blessing from anyone. Whenever you needed me, i would never say "no" however you couldn't give me anything, not even a support that a friend could give. Everything that you ever done to me, i don't bother, i don't care... I can forgive you anytime without any conditions. It's okay if you don't appreciate me at all but still i'll be supporting you like i always do.
How can i call it a confession since you're not gonna read this? But it's all right, I'm getting used doing things without having anyone to know.
Today, I was really sad by the way you treated me or i must say it wasn't the first time we quarreled and you deleted me from msn and facebook. Why did i care so much that you deleting me from msn or facebook? I care because I still care about you eventhough I knew you don't bother to know anything about me. I was born this way, extra caring + extra softhearted (I'm not complimenting myself, i called them my weaknesses). Whenever I see you online, i know you're doing fine. When i don't see you online, I know there's something wrong. That's how I'm keeping track of your life because I knew I've no right interrupting your life anymore, as I have no reason of why I shall sms you or call you anymore.
My tears rolled down to my upper lip out of sudden when I knew you did the same thing again. I wiped off my tears immediately and forced myself to hold the tears, however I failed. I hate myself being so fragile and weak of handling the issues between you and me. At the end of the day, I'll be the one who begs for forgiveness eventhough I knew it wasn't my fault. Again, I cried for you, the number of times I cried was uncountable within these 2 years. Sometimes I wonder why I need to work so hard to maintain the friendship between us since you will be taken it for granted. I'll never ask you for anything but at least a respect, could you? You told me you're trying to be harsh to me so that i could forget you, i wish i could forget you but you know it's impossible unless I lost my memory.
Why were you hating me? Ain't me supposed to be the one who hated you? Leaving me for someone new, making me the 3rd party in your new relationship, living my life so miserable without getting acknowledge and blessing from anyone. Whenever you needed me, i would never say "no" however you couldn't give me anything, not even a support that a friend could give. Everything that you ever done to me, i don't bother, i don't care... I can forgive you anytime without any conditions. It's okay if you don't appreciate me at all but still i'll be supporting you like i always do.
Let Go mate ! Dont know how i come across to your blog today. Well just browsing and i read this. Is so like some situation i've been through. Only thing i would like to say to u now is to let go & move on with your new life. No point being mr. nice guy. The more you care the more she will take advantage of you. The only way to win in these situation is to ignore her and if she come back one day is a bonus for u. The more you being around the more u seem to be pathetic to her. So mate, maintain your pride and dignity as for now !
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